Dr. Peters

We haven't gotten a chance to update in a while because of Thanksgiving, and sickness, and other craziness, but we went to see Dr. Peters on November 21st!  Overall, it went well!  What makes him different from RMA is that Dr. Peters has fewer patients and can therefore provide more specialized care.  RMA follows a more general plan to satisfy the masses.  One thing he mentioned was that, because of my thyroid, there is one additional test that he would like to have done for me to make sure that it isn't affecting anything.  The way he explained it made sense, but it's hard for me to reiterate what he said!  so hopefully, I'll be getting that test done soon.  He also gave Andrea a slip to go get blood taken to see if her eggs are good for us to use.  She just went today.  It was kind of a guessing game as to when she should get blood taken because she doesn't really have a cycle, but we'll see what he says on our follow up appt on December 19th.  we also have appts set up on December 28th to talk to the nurses about meds and to talk to the office manager about finances.  so we'll most likely be doing a February cycle as long as all goes well, which means that by NEXT thanksgiving, we'll have a whole lot more to be thankful for!!  :D

consultation scheduled!

Last week was a busy week for us.  We called RMA to get my records e-mailed to us and we called the new doctor (Dr. Peters) to schedule a consultation.  Initially they couldn't see us until December 19th, but thanks to Sam and Jen, we were able to get moved to the top of the waiting list and now, our appointment is November 21st!!  yay!  So once RMA e-mails my records, I can forward them to Dr. Peters, and then we'll be ready to go!  

We're thinking about using my eggs and Andrea's eggs this time, which is good for many reasons!  We're also considering whether it is better to transfer 2 or 3 eggs.  So we'll see what he has to say about all that at the consultation.  More on that later!

In the meantime, I've been at it again!  This time, looking up natural ways to help an IVF cycle be successful!  I've found that taking anti-oxidants is helpful, so I've ordered "Network Antioxidants", which is supposed to be spectacular for your body.  I've also ordered a hypnotherapy CD that is supposed to help.  Still doing the yoga, self-masssage, castor oil packs, drinking red raspberry leaf tea, drinking ultragreens, and eating wheat and dairy free.  Hopefully the combination of all these things makes a baby (or two!) this time!!  :)

Smile :)

Last night, we went to see Janelle Monae!  It was the perfect thing to take our minds off our recent negative.  On her earlier album she covers "Smile" by Nat King Cole, and i just thought I would share the lyrics on here because they are very appropriate for our whole journey so far.  So here they are!
Smile, though your heart is aching

Smile, even though it’s breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
you’ll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You’ll see the sun come shining through
for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness Although a tear may be ever so near
That’s the time you must keep on trying
Smile what’s the use of crying
You’ll find that life is still worthwhile
If you’ll just
Smile

SO, the point is that even though we are sad and disappointed, we're still trying because we know it will work for us.  And we're still smiling!  :)  Tomorrow, I'm going to call the new doctor to see when he can get us in for a consultation.  

negative :(

yet another negative... our third negative.  we've moved on from sad to pissed! we're drinking wine and eating pizza... real pizza!  the nurse who called me with the bad news mentioned something about using clomid again.  obviously clomid doesn't do a whole heck of a lot, so NO I DON'T WANT CLOMID AGAIN!!  BITCH!  :)  she also tried to tell me to call on the first day of my next cycle.  I just tried to get off the phone with her because she called when I had a line of 21 kids behind me walking in from recess.

so now, we're considering our options, we've narrowed it down to 2 options... either we switch to IVF, which we're finding is surprisingly attainable with a small loan, OR we try to do home inseminations and buy clomid online to help that process along.  We're leaning toward IVF at this point with a new doctor (Jen and Sam's doctor).  more details to come!

Optimism, miracles, slow ass doctors

So we had our blood test done this morning at like 6:45 AM, it's now 2:15 PM and we still don't have results. "Normally" they call us with results on any kind of blood test within a reasonable time frame, but lately they seem to not be too on top of things. As if the 2 week wait wasn't long enough, now they also insist making us wait several torturous hours to hear whether we are pregnant or not! Every time I get a text message from Marisa I cross my fingers before reading it hoping that it's the results of our pregnancy test, but until this point... nothing.

This morning after the negative home pregnancy tests I was feeling incredibly discouraged, however after waiting all day my optimism has shot right back up again. There could still be a chance! Miracles can happen, the fortune cookie said so!

I hope we hear something soon, I can't take waiting anymore.

2 Week Wait: Day 14

Paper and plastic pregnancy test results for the day: negative. We are currently sitting in the doctors office waiting to be called to have the blood test done. We won't find out the results of that until later this afternoon though. Even with the at-home pregnancy tests being negative there is still a chance that the blood test will be a positive. We're waiting for that miracle!

2 Week Wait: Day 13

Paper and plastic pregnancy test results for the day: negative. It's been a long 2 weeks, but we're in the homestretch now. Tonight was our tai chi class, so that at least helped us to de-stress until the blood test in the morning. We also decided to order a "good-luck" Chinese dinner. We've ordered from this place before, and they always give us fortune cookies. This time they gave us 3 fortune cookies, and one was chocolate (which they've never given us before). I insisted that the "special" fortune cookie was Marisa's, and that whatever the fortune was, was a sign. After reading the fortune in it we KNEW that it was!